Monday, November 12, 2007

It's a good thing God is in control!

Do you ever feel like you just can't do anything well? Not right...just well. I have been feeling that way for a few weeks now...like I am not doing anything well--not doing well at parenting, not doing well at being a wife, not doing well and surrendering to God, not being a good steward of money, not managing my time well, not eating well, and not being a very good vessel for the Lord.

I just want so much to be used by Him, and I want to be that quiet and gentle presence in my husband's, kids', and friends' lives. But I am so far from that lately, and my spirit is drowning in sorrow. It's a good thing that God is in control...because He sure can make beauty of my mess!

I'm waiting, Lord, lying on my back, arms open wide, just wanting to be all You created me to be. Please forgive me for not surrendering my all to you. Please use me in spite of my flaws. I want to jump up and run into Your arms. You are my Rock and Fortress...and Praise You for being my Redeemer!!! I love you, Lord.

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